Saturday, July 5, 2008

5th of July

I'm back to work. What a drag. Can't I just play poker for a living? I'm tired. A couple of weeks off and my body isn't used to all the physicality of my job. I'll be alright. I've been so tired there's been no poker the last couple of days.

Not much God time either. There's church tomorrow. Hopefully, I can get filled up with The Spirit. I've been feeling kinda flat lately. That's no indictment of God. More an indictment of me not seeking Him. I'm half-ass praying (hmmm, I'm not sure if there's such a thing, but if there is, I'm there). I'm disappointed that I'm not going to be able to get my girls down here for the summer. I'm bummed about gas prices and just the cost of living in general. I keep trying to have faith that things are going to work out. They will. One way or the other.

Lord, keep me strong in doing your will and to take the actions that I need to without worrying about the results. Keep my family and friends safe in these uncertain times and deliver us from evil as you have been so lovingly doing. You ARE the way, the truth and the light. Please keep shining it so I can find my way through the darkness. Thanks for my life, your humble child, Paul.


Maybe I'm Amazed said...

I get where you are coming from. I think we all feel that way at times (at least in my circle we do). I can be easily distracted with disappointment and although my Faith never disappears, sometimes it fades rather than being a shining neon light. When that happens, I do something Ed Noble talked about in a message a while back: Gratitude prayers. Ed said he starts with something simple like, "Lord, thank you for my socks without holes, or just thank you for my socks." He prays for 10 simple things he is thankful for. When I do this, I often gain perspective and focus for my other prayers. Another thing I do is pray short prayers all day long. "Lord, I'm available" "Guide me, Lord" "Bless (a name), Lord" I also pray the "Our Father" prayer frequently and this always helps me focus my Faith and prayers and reminds me that He is in control,and I turn my worries, anxieties, and the lot over to Him.

Laura Bora from Bufadora said...